Managed to convince mum to take me into town to get some school stuff. Had an apple in the morning, then when she took me out I managed to distract myself for a good couple of hours. Feeling very weak at the mo, and pretty lightheaded. She cooked baked potato and salad but i just ate the skin and some of the salad, and still purged on that. Talked to everyone on facebook for a few more hours and then, God, I'm so fucking angry at myself. I binged on a box of chocolate fingers. As soon as I'd stuffed all that down my fat face i knew I had to get rid of it so i did, it was pretty painful this time but that's probably just 'cause i've done it twice in one night. I felt better afterwards though, but i know that calories would still be in my system so i did 200 situps. Now feeling pretty tired which is a blessing 'cause sleep uses up so much time. watching jackass really cheers me up though and I really enjoy doing my journal, like i'm some sad sunday school chick with no friends. I think mums started to notice something so ill have to make sandwiches during the day and throw them in the river or something so she doesn't notice. I wanted to tell K so bad today, but she's got so much shit going on and it's silly 'cause i can manage on my own and she'd only lecture me, but I just feel quite lonely at the moment, but yeah that's the way I've chosen to be. I think that's all for now. Gonna try and get some sleep.
Stay strong.
s x
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